Real Life Roller Coaster Continues

My roller coaster life continues. I am trying to find a full time job preferably in the social work field. However, I applied for a job at a child care center close to my home. I talked to the director and she asked me to come in for a formal interview with the assistant director. The interview was short and I felt like I didn't click with the assisant director and that I bombed the interview. Then to my suprise a couple days later (a Friday) the assistant director called me and asked if I was still interested in the position. When I responded yes she wanted me to start on Monday. Because of previous commitments, I told her I couldn't start until the following week. She said OK, we discussed the pay and said she would talk to the owner about the pay rate.

Thinking that meant I got the job, I gave the bookstore (where I was working) my notice and was looking forward to this new job. Can you guess what happened?

For some reason I just had an unsure feeling about this new job, therefore I called to confirm my starting date and time to be there. I was told by the assistant director (the one I didn't click with) that the director was off for the next two weeks and that they world have to call me back and let me know for sure if I got the job or not. My stomach dropped as I was going down that hill. I had already turned in my notice and I didn't have a job to go to and knowing that I NEED to have a job.

I don't understand how in one phone call an employer can ask a person to start a job the next business day and then in the next phone call tell them they may or may not have the job. I also don't understand how an employer could offer you a job and expect you to be available the next business day! I asked these questions to the manager at the bookstore where I'm working and I had a different experience talking to someone who could be totally objective and not someone that knows me and cares about me and wanting the best for me. You know what I mean? I don't mean to say that she's not a caring person - just that she's not emotionally connected or involved with me. I asked for her opinion as a business person and as an employer. She had some of the same thoughts I did. She said it sounded like the director and assistant director had some miscommunication problems. She also advised me that I may want to reconsider if that would be a place I would want to work if I 'm having these kinds of problems before I even start working there. She also asked me if this was really the job I wanted or was I settling? Well, she was right. If I took that job I would be settling and it would just be something until the job I wanted would come along. She also advised me not to job hop, because that will look bad on a resume - which I already knew. Therefore, I have decided that if I do get a call back I am not accepting the job at the daycare center. I did talk to the mangers at the bookstore and they are aware that I am looking for a full time social work job and have agreed to let me work at the bookstore until I find the right job for me. Of course this is only part time so I really do need to find something soon, which is a totally different post all together.

This roller coaster ride of finding the right job and trying to figure out what God is teaching me and wants me to do continues. I still feel like God is not hearing or listening to my prayers and I am going through a dry period in my Christian walk right now. However, I have decided that I am going to Praise the Lord anyways no matter how I feel! I asked a friend of mine this morning to pray for me, because God is not listening to my prayers and maybe He will listen to yours. I am going to ask you in Blog world the same thing. Would you please say a pray for me. I need a special touch from the Lord. I need to hear Him say that He still loves me. I need to hear him say that He has our job and our financial situation under control. I need Him to provide our needs like His word says He will. I need to know that I am walking in the right path He wants me to and if I'm not, I need to know how and where to change. If you wouldn't mind please say a prayer for me. I sure would appreciate it.

Until Later,
~Betty~

Prayer Request

I'm not sure what to blog about today. I think my life has become boring, well maybe it has always been boring I'm just realizing it. lol I am still working on my organizational & weight loss goals. I am still working on a test blog to see about making some changes to this blog. I want to use this blog to list my goals and to keep me accountable to accomplish these goals. I thought I would have it ready for today, but because of other time commitments that came up the blog is not ready. However, it is coming. I know you all just can't wait to see it. lol.

As I have been talking to others my heart breaks with some of their situations that is happening. I want to share one situation and ask for your prayers for this family. A friend of mine, Lisa, is going through some tough times and I feel so helpless. She was admitted to the hospital last night after being at the ER on Saturday night with kidney stones. She is in so much pain and they can't seem to control it with medicine so she is having surgey this afternoon (as I type). They have 3 children whom she homeschools from the ages 7 - 13 years old. She will be in the hospital for the next several days. A mutual friend of ours, Alice, is taking care of her girls right now and will take them to the hospital later to visit her. Another mutual friend has been at the hospital the whole day to support her and her husband. Because of my child care business and my schedule I don't feel like there is much I can do to help. I have been praying for this family and want them to feel loved and supported and I'm glad to see people who are able to step up and be there are doing it.

Please be praying for this family. They have a lot of issues going on in their lives (that I won't be blogging about here). I sure would appericate your prayers.

Until Later,
Betty